AlishaMora

So this is who I am, and that is me.  A crazy woman trapped in a tortured  soul.   My life is hectic and calm at best.  My story goes like this; I come from a hugely broken home.  Dysfunctional with all capitol letters not just the D! I never really had any true guidance through life.  I did horrible in school and dropped out in 11th grade.  I was in the 11th grade; sitting in a 10th grade history class with only enough credits to be considered a freshman.  Now isn’t that a joke? Didn’t think I needed to be there. Just one of many bad decisions I made as a child.  I had a child at the same time around 17.  Another decision I should not have been making.  I was already playing mom in my house before that so I figured I could handle it.  I was left with all of my mother’s responsibilities since she just had to work two jobs. I can say I did not benefit from that.  Laundry, cleaning, dishes that is all I did. Oh and cook nasty hamburger helper all the time.  I got married at 20 and my husband joined the marine core.  So we spent a lot of time apart and I was left  caring for our children and figuring life out alone again.  I had 2 more children by then, and another one later so I have a total of 4 now.  I’m 29, 4 kids, no job or education.  I had never had a desire for anything in life until the last few years, and now my mind is sick with sadness that I cannot go for my dreams.   I have been through so many ups and downs emotionally I am a freakin wreck!   So I plan on spilling my tortured soul here. Crying to the white screen and typing away all of my troubles.   Wont you join me?